Much talking

Hey there.  My name is Jonathan and sometimes I talk too much but most of the time I barely talk. Atleast I feel like I don't talk enough.
It is a constant struggle to wonder if I lose the ones I want to keep because of my volume of words. When I talk less. I feel like people will think I don't care about them.  Just sometimes I can't get the words to come. 
Other times I am full of energy like someone plugged a fresh battery in the back of my head. Then I can't keep my mouth or fingers to stop moving. 
I want to be able to able find a middle ground.  It would be nice to be able to speak much and hold an conversation.  Only closing the valve to make space for whomever I am talking to.  
I want to be excited.  Sound excited.  Jump for joy and be there fully for my engagement partner.

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