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What is and What isn't.

" 16  Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. My mind makes me feel unsafe no matter where I am. Am I in all the wrong places? Am I doing everything wrong? I know that I failed so many times in my life, and there are too many almosts than I'd like to count. That would be too heavy a weight. I know that it's all on me. I fell apart at every sign of a struggle. I didn't want to do it. Instead, I just gave up. The number of things I can accomplish feels so much less than when I was younger. The sad thing is that I don't really know if that is true.  I am comparing myself to everyone and everything that I see. People who struggled and got somewhere. Those who struggled but didn't get anywhere. I compare myself to what I could have been. I see a whole different life when I look through my eyes. When I look at myself and wonder what would've been if I weren't afraid. If I ...
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 You have been quiet for so long did you really think that would get you anywhere that's worth it you are only wasting time You knew how you used to be but you keep holding back as if i'm telling you to be perfect that is something you can never do and nothing you even meant to be what you carry is nothing  not heavy as you make it to be nothing as heavy compared to him he has carried the sins of the whole world crushed with each step he has taken he carried it all onto his own death feeling every moment of pain and carried what he could have let go so open your mouth leave that heart open even with tears flowing down and rise again and again because of the name above all names our King Jesus
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 Hello there, How is it going? How are you feeling today? me? I feel lost. I feel like I don't know how to act or how I should react in any situation. I always feel like I am doing the wrong thing, or doing the right thing at the wrong time. I feel like a child who has to be told what to do before I could do it. I also feel like my friends don't really like me, and I am too afraid of putting a strain on our friendship to find out. I don't even know why I need to find out. I don't, I know that I don't. It is only the lie that asks "Are they really your friend?" I am too far in my head lately
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 Hello,  It's me. The one who doesn't stay consistent with writing or much of anything else. It is my bad habit. Even though I am, I am not sure what I am writing about.  There isn't anything in my head except these words as I get them out. I guess this is just normal until ... I can feel you . I know that you are there even when the waves have seemed to calm down
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Hello. It's been some time since I last wrote something,  and right now I don't feel good. I know it's in my head and based on how I feel inside.  Despite knowing and admitting that.  It feels like everything is coming to an end.  I haphazardly watching as everything I know and love come to an end. My hand is stretched out firmly in front of me but something doesn't feel right here I am alone even when I am right in front of you, and I am getting used to it And I never wanted to get used to this
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 Hello there. It has been some time since I wrote in this blog. I don't what I want to say right now. It's not that nothing is going on right now. Things are actually going well right now. I get to see the friend I love every week. I am now talking to her awesome husband, he is cool. I am glad that I get to talk to him. Even though all I want to do is steal all her time. Even though I don't want to share her friendship with anyone else. I am glad that her and her family could be surrounded by so many incredible people!
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I almost didn't write today. I was forgetting that this was something I put myself up to. I am not sure what I was expecting. Where is the result of doing this? I am not seeing it. I am going to keep it up anyway. Result or not!
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